Contest prep has been plugging along. Cardio, sometime twice a day. Heavy workouts. And the dreaded diet. I have been eating clean (mostly) for the last 7 months but the last couple of week has been a much stricter diet. Reduced calories, reduced carbs leaving me…we somewhat crabby. It has also left me craving foods I would not normally seek; such as french fries (well anything fried), cookies (Chips Ohoy, with a big glass of milk), Coldstone ice cream, just to name a few.
I have allowed myself one cheat meal about once a week. Normally my cheat would be a clean meal with maybe a little extra rice or potato and 1 glass of wine. This normally helps to keep the diet monster at bay knowing that I only had to make it another 6 days before I could have another treat. But…
Saturday was the 6 week mark and I still have a little ways to go; when I put that bedazzled bikini on I want to look my best and know I put 100% into it. So Saturday was my last cheat meal…that means over 5 weeks of restricted diet, low carbs and NO alcohol. Well needless to say I went a little crazy. So I guess this is a little like confession
We had dinner at Mucho’s in Manhattan Beach, where I had chips and salsa and a margarita to start. So you say “That’s no so bad”. You missed to key word “to start”. Then I ordered Mexican short ribs, slow cooked in a rich red mole sauce, with honey glazed carrots and jalapeno al gratin potatoes. Nothing clean about this meal. Oh and if that wasn’t bad enough, after dinner we walked across the street to Cupcake Couture and got 4 different flavored cupcakes.
Oh cupcakes are my weakness. We got Lemon, which had lemon curd filling, Chocolate Mint, chocolate cupcake with this york peppermint patty filling, A “Glitz and Glamor” which was French Vanilla butter-cream frosting and white chocolate shaving on top, and lastly Double Chocolate Fudge…no explanation needed.
Now I didn’t eat all the cupcakes myself, I cut them in 4′s and had 1/4 of each. I have some self control.
After this huge meal, I sat on the sofa feeling very sick and ashamed that I had indulged in such a way. I think back and it didn’t even taste all that great…well the cupcakes were pretty Yummy, but I think a little would have gone a long way. I also would not have felt as guilty. I did feel guilty so much so that I decided to atone for these sins with an extra half hour of cardio on Sunday.
I know that the next 5+ weeks are going to be tough but I can visualize myself on stage in that bedazzled bikini and know that I did
everything I could to get there and that I look better than I have ever looked. So this small sacrifice, the food that I “think” I want to eat is going to be a snap. I just have to keep telling myself that and visualizing the goal. I can also count on a great support system to keep me on track. I would not be where I am today without all of them.
So here’s to the next 5 weeks…cheat free.